An Invitation to My Divine Comedy

Developing an Inner Self That Can Withstand Changing Life Circumstances

Jenny told me on March 4th (25 days ago) that she was over a week late on her period.

Let me tell you.

When you are an almost 48-year-old man who had a vasectomy over a decade ago and who has three kids (22, 19, and 10), the last thing you want to hear are those words.

Like a gray-bearded soldier, hoping he had already fought in his last war, I marched into Fort Walgreens and stealthily purchased a box with two tests. Walking out to my car, I began laughing out loud at the hilarity of my divine comedy.

With the bathroom door secure from a potentially wandering 10-year-old, we waited for two minutes that were twenty years.

The 99.9% accurate digital test flashed.

Pregnant.

You have likely heard the phrase build your house upon the rock rather than the sand. The point is that a house built upon the rock is better able to withstand strong winds and heavy storms than one built upon a foundation that easily washes away.

I imagine this firm foundation that centers a person and gives solid grounding has to be peace and love. Despite what storms may blow our way, it is the foundation of peace and love that firmly grounds us, enabling us to stand firm. That is why the previous writings have been so insistent upon each of us cultivating a healthy and vibrant inner self. When our center is peace and love, we have the resiliency to handle the most unpredictable life situations.

I am glad I have been working on my inner self over the last few months because this was a life situation I never expected. After hugging and nervously laughing, I told Jenny that I am going to pour every ounce of love and wisdom into that kid. It is not the path I imagined us taking at this point in our lives, but I received it with a peaceful soul.

I suppose that is what we are all working toward, together.

Interestingly enough, after three subsequent pregnancy tests and a fourth from the doctor, it turns out that Jenny is not pregnant. The first test was a false positive. I could have told you that earlier, but I wanted you to have the same experience that we had over that two day period. 

Peace,

Brandon